October

Day 27

October has been my month of “falling apart”. I have been in and out of doctor’s offices all month. Am I sick like Husband-Man is sick? Nope. I just have a cluster of yuck that’s not wanted to go away.

No matter how much I’d like to whine about how miserable this month has been, I’m going to refrain. You don’t want to know. You REALLY don’t want to know.

So, have I handled this cluster of yuck well? No. I haven’t.  Let’s be real. I’ve cried a lot. I’ve made Husband-Man feel bad while I lay on the couch and refuse to move. I’ve bemoaned driving to the doctor and getting tests done. (Poor me. I have access to excellent medical care. #firstworldproblems #brat #notcoolself.) I’ve cried some more. I’ve complained.

I’ve been attempting to make Mondays in October about being “around the house”, and this month, I’ve made my house yucky. And I’m ashamed of it.

And of course, I want to tell the internet-world that I’m great and I’ve got all the stuff together. Lies. All lies.

So, around the house this week, I’m failing. I’m sick (with what we still don’t know), and I’m waiting to get better. This week, I want to try to wait better. To tell God about my yuck and to trust Him.

What has your yuck been? Do  you need to wait with more grace?

This post is part of the 31 Days Writing Challenge, in which a group of writers post a piece every day for the month of October. Want to read all of my posts in this series? Click here

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4 thoughts on “October

  1. Victoria says:

    Oh, dear friend. It has been a doozy of a month. But, you know what? You’re getting more beautiful through every blessed hard day of it. The Lord is pleased with you, not because of you but because of Christ. Rest in Him. Abide in Him. Know that after the darkest night, dawn breaks 🙂

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    • Carla says:

      Thank you do much, Sarah. I appreciate your prayers so much.
      I hope that you adjust to your new normal well. New normals have a way of beating us up, but they’re so exciting at the same time! I’m glad you don’t have any yuck on top of the new normal.

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